friable

it's so much later than it should be

and so much longer than i can remember

since i've been like this

and i've hugged people tonight

who made me feel welcome

and seen

and in this hotel

bathroom mirror

i don't recognize

i see my red eyes

trying to find my room

and i've dropped my key on the floor

it's fine

and it's so late

and i don't know

if i should ask you

to share our lives together

or not

but it's all i want to do

and i just don't trust myself to

because maybe i'm right

but maybe i'm just craving you

and these hugs from people i know

only a little

maybe they see

something

in me

that you don't

but maybe

i'm just drunk

in

a hotel

bathroom

i don't recognize

i don't entirely

trust myself

i'm grateful for bed